aj brishti hoyechi :: today rain happened. I tried to tiptoe my way back down the streets after I had finished lunch, I suppose hoping I might arrive with dry pants. As I was soon in the middle of the street dodging the puddles of water that had collected on my side of the road and cars were honking at me and the bike rickshaw was ringing his bell as he rode up behind me I realized the best scenario was just to give in. So I laughed with myself and stepped intentionally into the murky water as I felt the eyes of others question my smile and action. The rains made for a nice walk around the city; everyone seemed preoccupied with the water so I could walk in peace for the first time and even took some photos.
I realized today I really like my language teacher; she is teaching us a lot about Bangla and being so patient and encouraging. She learned that it helps me to have words of assurance and confirmation as I try to speak a new language. Today we even spoke in Bangla on our break, I was asking her about the food she eats in the evenings with her family; so she can probably tell I am getting a little more comfortable with speaking. I am still far from being fluent but it is encouraging to have some ability to speak and understand bsaic conversation. I am reminding myself that this is something that takes time, it will continue to be a main focus of mine as I live here in Asia.
It is still quite surreal, southern asia. Sometimes I enjoy life here, love the idea of this being my life. Other days, I feel totally out of place and clueless as to what I'm doing. Why did I venture halfway across the world? I find these cities i've been in hard places to live as daily im asked to give part of myself to another. and its frustrating because you feel like someone should be able to find some kind of job, they should choose to approach someone else and not just me because I have a lighter color of skin and clearly am from out of town, i can feel taken advantage of, used. but then i think of Christ. I think of Paul's words to consider others better than myself. and i ask myself why i have to be so selfish. and i hate realizeing this about myself because it forces me to look at how far I really am from imitating Jesus. Jesus called me to a life that isnt supposed to be about me...
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I love reading about what you are learning, sharing your experiences allows you to share the lessons God is teaching you, and it allows confirmation for you as others realize the truth in things you say. Imitating Christ is our call in life, but it is a difficult one that we don't do well very often, but the realization of that fact alone brings us closer to fulfilling that possibility, and thats awesome to read about, keep following HIM Brooke, and you'll find yourself imitating Christ more and more. :) God bless you sister and I am praying for you, you are RIGHT where HE wants you to be, don't forget that!
-Amber
Also, just wanted to leave you this verse...
"Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God."
Ephesians 5:1-2
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